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Thursday, March 06, 2008

He was born in 74

Christopher J. Ball
My Best Friend in the WORLD ... why did he have to go?!
I ask myself that everyday ... everyday!

I was home for Spring Break; I was in college. I brought so many friends home with me and SO many of my SnowBEs were staying down the road from us. We weren't actually SnowBEs then, but I to this day feel that is the bond that tied me to them. His birthday was on a Friday ... he was celebrating it up on his new bike. The Harley he always wanted. He worked for my Dad, even though they were years apart they had a bond I don't think I have ever witnessed in anyone else. My Dad and his business partner Roland fixed his bike for him for his B-day. He rode with his friends all weekend ... me and my friends partied all weekend. That Friday for his B-day we bought the Pay-per view boxing match at his house. Most of my friends stopped by and we all hung out until the late late hours of the night. He told me and my Dad SEVERAL times that "THIS IS THE BEST BIRTHDAY I HAVE EVER HAD!!!" I remember on Saturday him and his friends drove by my parents to say hey and that they were having the time of their lives! He just wanted to tell my dad thanks for all he did for him. As he drove off I have no idea it would be our last talk. I am so so glad that I hugged him and told him we all loved him! I am so glad he knew we loved him.

It was Monday morning I was in bed, with my then boyfriend (at my parents ... wow was I daring) the phone rang, I remember like it was this morning ... it was my Dad; it was 7:23 on my clock "Kim, Kim .... it's Chris, he's gone" That is all he said. I woke the HOUSE up! Everyone of them up. I called Lisa's Grandma's house and said get up, get up, put (my then best friend) Olivia on the phone ... I thought I would die too! I cried the entire way to the office, with my friends telling me I would be okay. NO NO I wouldn't and I still am not.

You see it was foggy that day, he drove his bike to work and some IDIOT pulled right out in front of him ... so close that he T-boned the driver side door of his truck. Because this IDIOT had his business in his wife's name they would not cover the accident; not that any amount of money would have made it better, but they didn't even cover his burial. NEVER MIND the FUCKER never even sent flowers or a sorry to his mother ... sorry for the bad language. We got to the hospital first, my dad had to identify his body. His mom got there and I puked. As soon as I saw her I tossed my cookies ... right there in the floor in front of everyone. Gross I know, but you can't imagine the look on her face.

You know I can't even remember the EXACT year it was because after that I was a DRUNK, I too a lot of drugs, pills ... popped anything I could get my hands on ... that with LOTE OF BEER = BLACK OUTS. It was 99 or 2000. I am almost sure it was 99 but hey who cares?! Not me the only thing I care about is that he is NOT here with us.

My favorite memory of "us"
it was summer, I was home for break ... we were driving around town in my Amigo ... it was pink ... we had the top off, he was driving cause I was TRASHED ... I was singing Ace of Base at the top of my lungs. He was laughing and dancing, telling me he loved me ... loved me like a sister, like the girl he would never have and mostly likely the woman he would one day marry. AWESOME!!! I don't think we would have ever dated, or married ... but the question was always there ... he was very attractive, but he was one of those guys that was too nice for me. Haha So was Andy but the time was just right.

Anyway thanks for listening ... to my friends that supported me that year THANK YOU! I would died without ... literally I would have. I appreciate all of you still here with me and the one that isn't (Olivia) thank you too! You made a difference back then.

To Chris I love you, I always will! I try very hard to keep in touch with your mom. I try to send flowers to her for her Birthday, Valentines Day because that is what YOU would have done. I make SURE to send her a card for all Holidays. I don't call near as much as I should and I am sorry for that, but I try to stay in touch with her as much as possible. Every year the week of your Birthday and Death Day I send her a dozen yellow Roses and a dozen purple Iris ... those were YOUR favorites and that is WHAT we cover your casket and grave site with. I love you, I will NEVER forget you! You are the BEST FRIEND I have EVER or WILL EVER have! I talk to you, do you here me?! I know you like Andy ... So many times when we were dating, things would happen and I knew it was you .... you with us approving and telling me to Go to him!
I wish you could have met Tatum ... she is wonderful! She is my EVERYTHING and I know she would have been yours too ... next to your kids of course. I am glad we are the only ones you left behind, your mom, me, my family and your friends. Not that I am happy you left us, but I am glad you didn't have a wife and kids yet. God needed you more I understand! God took you from us when you were young, but he didn't take your memory; IT will forever be with me! I LOVE YOU! I MISS YOU! I see you in my dreams I know you are here with me! I WILL see you one day soon, I hope it is much later, but I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN!


tommie said...

OMG, I am sitting here in tears. I am so sorry you lost such your best friend at such a young age.

You are so thoughtful to remember his family. You can't even know how much that means to them.

Unknown said...

I'll never forget that spring break either. I remember the day, even though I didn't really know you well then, and only met Chris maybe once. You are so thoughtful to still continue doing nice things for his Mom. Love you gurl.

Chris said...

I've read a little something about him before on your blog. I'm so sorry for your loss. I've lost co-workers, aquaintances but never a really close friend. I can't imagine how incredibly hard that was/is for you! What a touching tribute to you're friend. I know Chris is an angel now watching over you and yours...

Unknown said...

I'm so sorry. That f(*&ing sucks. There's nothing worse than the sudden loss of a life so young.

I know he's smiling down on you from somewhere...

Anonymous said...

i'm so sorry, kim.

what a wonderful, thoughful thing you're doing for his mom!

kimmyk said...

awww how sad.

very nice of you to continue to think of his momma. i'm sure he appreciates it.

-hugs girlie.

Becca said...

Wow...what a tear-jerker blog. I am sorry you lost your BF so early in life! It sucks that the good people in our life have to be taken from us! It is so sweet of you to do what you do for Chris's mom around his birthday!

Angela said...

I am so sorry about your friend. Take comfort knowing that he is with you daily. That is great that you still do nice things for his mom. I am sure that is a blessing for her.

I saw your messge on my blog. Thanks for checking on me. We have been out of town.

Anonymous said...

wow! that was beuatiful, Kimmy. thanks for sharing that. :)

Nature Girl said...

what a beautiful tribute to your friend Kimmy! I'm so sorry you lost him so soon. I think it's wonderful that you still keep in touch with his Mom and I'm sure she appreciates it as well.