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Monday, June 02, 2008

FRUSTRATION

I have tried for a week to post a video of Tatum walking behind her push walker - I freakin' give up! I will try again tomorrow ... I am so mad at this darn thing!
Love to you all!

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Introducing Baby Boy Kemp

I had a US on Tuesday evening ... here are some of the shots -
Looking right at you ...
Profile ... what a belly already!
Boy parts ... see his turtle?!
Little hand - all crammed in there!

Since the US was not performed at the Dr. she did not give me a estimated weight -
I do have another US with the Dr. not sure when it is, but I will update ... you know I will!

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

UPDATE ON TATUM ...

Okay ... first let me say THANKS! Not only did you all have very GOOD information and support for me about Tatum's B-day but you also have all sent very warm and caring thoughts about Tatum and her "procedure."
It was today and she did GREAT!!! Daddy did well too ... he said it was not near as bad as he thought it would be! She only cried once they got her bladder FILLED UP to the point she had to pee pee on the table, which is exactly what they wanted her to do! So she did great ... I could hear her crying and yes I cried a little, but not near like I thought I would!

The test revealed that the Bladder and Kidneys are functioning perfect ... NOTHING is going the wrong way and the UTI's may be cause simply from bad explosive potty's or the soap we are using ... so now it is trial and error! The Dr and tech in the room told my hubby that, but we will still have to talk to her Dr. directly! But they said all was perfect!

I has a US yesterday and can't wait to show you pictures of our little guy!!! I will post them tomorrow, I was too worried about Tatum Bell today and I left them at work! So tomorrow I will give you some pics of baby boy Kemp!

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Tatum's "Procedure"

Tomorrow (Wednesday) is Tatum Bells BIG day ... we go to the hospital at 11 and have her little self checked out - keep us in your prayers!

If you don't know what I am talking about here is a copy of my post about it:
The update on Tatums' UTI ...The Dr thinks she may have Vesicoureteral reflux (VUR). She goes to the Dr on the 28th for a test: voiding cystourethrogram (VCUG) . They will catheter her and insert a dye into her bladder and push it to her kidneys ... then if it backs up into the kidneys they will use the dye to determine just how bad it is. If it is slight ... (which is the most likely) they will treat it with a long term antibiotic if it is sever (not likely) they will treat it with surgery.I will keep you posted!

Sunday, May 25, 2008

1st Birthday For Miss T

Well I am beating myself up over here but I don't think we will be having a BIG birthday bash for Tatum Bell ... With work, working on the River house, Preggo and her I am EXHAUSTED!!! Last night I was in bed by 8 and up with Tatum at 4 ... she hasn't slept through the night in 4 weeks. :( Which is very hard since she has been sleeping through the night since she was 3 months. So up with her once, up to pee 3 times and my body HURTS! I tried so hard to work at the house all day yesterday ... I made it from 9 - 3 and my ankles were swollen and my fingers were too. I had to leave, go get the baby and then tend to her. So I was still up on my feet. We have missed the move in date of June ... not sure how we will be moving in in another month when I am really miserable, but we will figure it out, I guess.

Anyway back to the point - sorry I went on that whining spree ... I hate to rob her, but I thought] that it would be easier on ME (and her too) to have just the family over. It is only 2 weeks and a couple days away ... and I really just have NO ENERGY! is that horrible?! I have been to several1st birthday's with TONS of kids, and parents and really they are more for the parents than the kids, and I just can't see me spending energy for parents at this point. I love my friends, but I can't find the strength to pull it all together ... and I a horrible mommy?!

Friday, May 23, 2008

TOO TIRED TO WRITE

So here are some pictures to satisfy you ...
Tatum at her PRETEND birthday

Playing on the stairs @ Tommy and Nikki's

Opening more presents ... her Kitchen from Aunt Judy!

Andy and I at my Birthday dinner!

Me, My Grandma and Tatum

Tatum looking out the window of the plane!


Tuesday, May 20, 2008

2 posts one day ...

The update on Tatums' UTI ...
The Dr thinks she may have Vesicoureteral reflux (VUR). She goes to the Dr on the 28th for a test: voiding cystourethrogram (VCUG) . They will catheter her and insert a dye into her bladder and push it to her kidneys ... then if it backs up into the kidneys they will use the dye to determine just how bad it is. If it is slight ... (which is the most likely) they will treat it with a long term antibiotic if it is sever (not likely) they will treat it with surgery.
I will keep you posted!

Our first plane ride

***Didn't mean to write SO much ... condensed version at very end ***

Well I am home, on safe ground! This was our week last week ...
We were scheduled to fly out on Thursday at 12:50

On Wednesday the school (day care) called to tell me that Tatum was not acting well ... They wanted me to know because they knew we were leaving on Thursday and they thought we should make a trip to the Dr. So ... I leave work at noon ... not a good thing when the PLAN was to work late so I could miss Thursday, Friday and Monday. But FAMILY is FIRST, so I go pick her up, take her to the Dr. "she has a viral infection, you just have to wait it out." (WTF is a viral infection anyway?! I think it is the Dr's way to say I HAVE NO CLUE .... good luck!)

Anyway I tell the Dr I think she has a UTI again and that this is EXACTLY the way she was with the last one ... to which Dr replies ... "it is NOT common to get UTI's with teeth, I am sure you are just nervous b/c you leave tomorrow, she is FINE" I ask her ONE last time to check for UTI ... she says that is excessive no need.

Okay so we leave ... with the okay to fly!


Wednesday night - guess ... go ahead ... guess ... 104.3 fever ... a very unhappy baby and a pissy mom. She was miserable. I am in tears, b/c I am not about to make her fly.

Thursday am - back to the Dr we go - 2 hours later ... guess what ... UTI. Didn't I call that one?! Um yeah thanks, that is what I said yesterday! She said go ahead fly she will be FINE ... it may even be easier since she is a little "out of it."

Thursday noon-ish board our first plane. Tatum is on my lap - it went OKAY ... she was NOT "that baby," but she was not great either. She wanted down, she wanted the man next to us, whom by the way was NOT AT ALL HAPPY we were beside him. Layover (Charlotte) no big deal ... Tatum would NOT nap, she was getting cranky ... I took her temp 103.2 I freaked out - started to CRY ... called Andy - bad idea ... made me cry worse. For some reason even though he is MY rock I just cry harder when he says "honey, breath it is fine, she is fine you are fine" ... I ball like a baby. Thanks to 2 woman ... they helped me! They were angles sent from God! Tatum had her own seat ... I think only because the ticket taker man felt so sorry for me ... he moved me beside a empty seat and guess what the 2 ladies were right behind us ... Thank God! They helped me entertain her and keep her occupied!

But not once did she SCREAM and be bad!

The visit was great ... the best part - we got to see my cousin and his bride to be's house ... she is very very talented and artsy ... I loved everything about it! I wish I had a ounce of that talent!
We saw my Grandma (94) who is still very "with it" she spoiled Tatum and even gave us money for her college fund!

Trip home - I think I was SUPPOSED to fly home on this day at this time ... I changed my flight to a earlier time and bought Tatum her OWN seat ... took her car seat and strapped her ass in!
(I know I said she wasn't bad, but I really don't have that much of a lap and I was not comfortable with her on my lap ... nor was she for that matter!) So- I met 5 different people that had/have children within 14 months of each other - one man ... another angle from GOD ... boy girl 12 months apart ... PLANNED!!! He talked to us for a long time, helped me get the car seat on and off the plan ... helped me get Tatum Bell off the plane - had to walk down stairs - I KNOW I WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET HIM!!! I know it! It was all part of "HIS" plan!

The ride home was MUCH better with her in her own seat ... she slept on both flights and was an angle ... even when she had a blow out diaper! Not a peep ... just a stench! Haha but she was WONDERFUL!!!

The best part - seeing her see her Daddy! I cried! She almost jumped out of my arms to get to him!~ I am not 100% positive, but I think I saw a tear or two in his eyes too! She giggled SO HARD when she got to him I almost peed my pants! Guess what else - she is WALKING ... Walking I tell ya ... 5 - 7 steps at a time, but she is going to be taking off soon!

Okay well I didn't mean to write SO MUCH I am sorry! But we are home, she did great and we now have a Dr appointment with a specialist for her bladder/kidneys to see what the problem is ... that is on the 28th I will keep you posted!

Pictures to come ... and also this week to come ... names ... I need help picking one!
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Were home, baby was sick, the flights were good, she was great and we only had one blow out! Dr appointment with a specialist (another UTI) on the 28th - pictures to come and baby names this week too!

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

OMG

My Husband ROCKS ... not only did he get me THE BEST card ever ...
I got a pregnancy massage, a spa pedicure, spa manicure and a XOXOXOX diamond tennis bracelet!!! Geese! I think he loves me and you all know I LOVE HIM!
OH YEAH I LOVE THE PRESENTS TOO!!!

Guess What ...

It's my Birthday!!! I am old!


Or at least I feel like I am old. 33 ... that is old!
However yesterday driving to work I looked out over the waterway as I was going over the 501 bridge and I was so calm ... I get to live there! It is so peaceful and beautiful, I have a beautiful daughter and a baby boy on the way ... I have the most wonderful Hubby in the WORLD and even though it is tough right now life is good! I am thankful for all my friends, I am thankful that our business is still busy even though everyone around us is slow and you know what I am BLESSED!!!


The card Andy left me this am said this ... it made me cry ... so perfect!



Once there was this guy.
A nice guy, really.
And he met this girl.
An incredible girl- truly amazing.
So naturally the guy falls
head over heels in love with her,
and pretty soon they're picking out
china patterns and rings
and there's a wedding
and the starry-eyed couple
rides off into what will surely
be a rosy future.


Okay, so now some time has passed
and the guy is living in that future.
He's still married to this girl,
but now their life includes a lot of stuff -
appliances and bills and loads of laundry
and home repair projects.
But between all the to-dos and have-tos,
there are these moments
when the guy stops for a minute
and looks around him.


He looks at his wife,
who is still truly amazing,
he looks at their life together,
all the ways and different
directions it's grown,
he looks at all
the responsibilities he's got,
and he thinks to himself,
so, this is my life.
And then he thinks,
I am one helluva lucky guy.


Happy Birthday
I love you!




Serriously how much better can it get?! That card was made for us!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

THis is for you ... Chris!!!


Seriously no time to type and talk - here are some pictures to hold you all off until we return from Ohio - which by the way I am going up for a wedding shower - my cousin is getting married in July and the Dr so far has said I can't go - so I can't miss the shower! Hope you enjoy the pictures!

Being a cutie patootie

Bathing in the RV sink

She loves the water
Why is it so slow mom?!
We got her a baby pool ...
Dunking her head!
Yeah! Feels good!


Watch out Naked baby in the yard!
Eating my glasses...



U ready to Go Mommy?!
This will be a great picture at 16!!!

So glad to be home ... notice her loving her new Blankie!!


Love my fingers too!

Night Night everyone!
PS - think of us not only while we are flying but Tatum Bug is getting 5 teeth this week - The 2 beside the I teeth, the I tooth on the right side and the 2 front ... yes all at the same time - last night she was so pitiful!

Monday, May 12, 2008

nothing

I am home from the races, getting ready for our trip to Ohio. Pray for us, I leave with the baby on Thursday and we FLY by ourselves ... yikes! I didn't take many pictures at the race - only some of the baby in her blow up pool. I will try to post them tomorrow! I Had a good time, glad to be home!
I am happy to tell you all that Tatum likes ALL of her blankies - I got her 4 blankies all very different than her "ducky" but she loves them all the same! YEAH!!!

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Tornado


Not really a tornado but that is what I feel like my life is doing right now ... roaring and racing and destructing. Everything is happening so fast ...


~I am already 6 months preggo, only 3 months to go.



~We still have 2 houses, and the one we want to sell isn't even showing. I am starting to freak out about it!The market isn't really good for our house ... $495,000 is not what people want to buy right now, right now they all want a DEAL just like we did with the river house.



~River House - it is going well, we let people "talk" us into going ahead and redoing the kitchen (all new cabinets, counter tops, and appliances) also totally reworking the bathroom upstairs ... making the biggest the smallest, adding a laundry room and making the master portion bigger, adding a separate bath and shower, with a double vanity. Long story short I am GLAD that we did it now, but it really BROKE our budget ... now we are at the end of the budget and still have to buy tile for the bathrooms, and laundry room (both of them one up and one down) We still have not bought any towel racks or lights for the baths or fans. So all that means our BUDGET is busted ... haha. I guess they always are huh?!



~Baby 2 - things are going well but that is just the filling in the cake ... I am HOT, HOT People ... I can't do ANYTHING without "glistening" I am out of breath and I am only 3 lbs from the weight I gained with Tatum, and I still have 3 months ... 3 LONG months in the SUMMER HEAT OF SC and did I mention I am HOT.



~Work - SUCKS ... I have told you lately how hard it is to work in the construction field ... we don't employee the brightest of the bunch. They live from pay check to pay check - not that most of us don't, but the majority of them live that way for one of 2 reasons - ALCOHOL and or DRUGS! I am serious! This week I caught 2 workers getting high behind our dumpster - yes at work ... are you serious?! Then they question me when I fired them?! Uh here is your sign!



~Teeth - I now hate Teeth ... for some reason Tatum got in her bottom 2 middle/front teeth and her top ... not in the middle but the 2 on either side of the middle are coming in! I am serious about this too. I don't even understand how or why that is possible.



~Husband, he now thinks he is Bob Villa ... I am so proud of him, but I am over it! I want that house finished and my family back!!!



I will finish with the best 2 things that will happen this week - 1st tonight 8 pm my time, 7pm her time I get to TALK TO ROBIN!!!! I am so stoked, and the best part - both of us asked our hubbies "what if she doesn't like the sound of my voice and she doesn't want to meet me in the end" I am serious as a heart attack when I tell you we both asked and talked to our men about that! 2nd good thing - I leave tomorrow to go to Darlington,SC ... going to the races baby! I can't go to the race this time ... It is my turn to keep Tatum, but I will be at the track ... away from home (both houses) work and life!!! I will be with my hubby, my mom, my dad and of course my Tatum bug! YEAH!!!





Now here are some pictures ... 2 of teeth and the rest are of Tatum in the bath ... she LOVES IT!



Do you see that?! Why isn't it in the middle?!


Sorry about the food, she wont let me take a picture of them ... bottom 2

Happy baby!

Getting ready to dunk her OWN head ... yep!

My water baby!! She loves it!

Dunking herself again!

Good night every one ... I have a important phone call in 15 minutes ... yeah! If I don't blog tonight I will blog on Monday after we get back from the races!

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Another shout out for help

I love blog land - you wanna know why?!
Well it starts with FRIENDS and resources that I would never have else where ...
I asked for help getting a nose sucker thingy ... and guess what I got it!!!

THANK YOU THANK YOU Becca from A shipley Renovation, she scored me 2, and so did Chris from Bresnan Family ... You both ROCK!!!! Now remember to all you new expecting moms or if any of you know a mom 2 be tell them that that nose sucky thingy is GOLD!!!
I have met so many people and so many new friends ... all of whom are so so supportive of me and my feelings, thank you all for the kind words over the last few months. You all know I am having a hard time and each day I am surprised by your vote of confidence and your kind words! THANK YOU ALL!!!

Okay and here is my shout out for help - *** See update at bottom of post
Tatum has a blankie - the child can not ride in the car without it, nor can she sleep with out it! If you don't believe me ask MelBel I called her yesterday while I was driving ... Andy forgot to take her bankie to Day Care and it was horrible - no nap, the teacher said she screamed all day and then when I tried to drive home - she was SCREAMING ... so here it is ... our favorite bankie ...
The duck bankie is the purple and yellow thing up by her head


In the RV in her car seat snoozing ... death grip on it



Anyway I can't find another one and we need one (we still have this one, but we need a extra) ... the tag on it says http://www.ganz.com/ but when you go there it is for retailers only ... you can not make a purchase off of the site. The place we bought it from here does not have anymore ... I have googled, Craig's list, eBay and searched for another for weeks ... if you happen to see one in a store please ask them for their number or info I will buy one - three and have them shipped to me!!! I even contacted Ganz ... they can't tell me which stores they have sent them to?! What is that ... the duckie bankie is silky on one side and furry on the other, it has a duck head on the top corner and it is a LARGE bankie, not a tiny one like from wally world - which by the way we have tried. It does not have to be a duck, but at least a larger size bankie ... here is a picture of it from ganz.com ...


it is the duck hanging over the chair in the back ...



If you see one please let me know ... or if you happen to know where I can buy ganz items please tell me! Thanks in advance!

**** would you believe that someone from amazon.com contacted me - they sell baby ganz and they didn't have the "duck" but they did have a lady bug and a frog that were similar ... I ordered both ... I hope they are the SAME as the duck - I will keep you posted! If you do see a duck out there let me know!

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Call me Britany

Well I was at Babies *R Us yesterday buying a forward facing car seat (BTW how bad of a mommy am I?! She isn't 1 nor is she 22 lbs but we turned around yesterday?!) Anyway I was checking out with my 2 car seats ... one for Andy's car and one for mine and I had a box of #3 diapers and 2 boxes of NB diapers. The lady at the check out kinda looks at me, then continues to ring my items. The lady in line behind me says ... "do you have THAT many babies?" I say to her ... Well I have A 10 month old and another on the way. To which the nosey BITCH replies ... "Oh goodness ... you didn't figure it out the first time dear?!" I replied "well honestly it was all part of God's hand." Then I went to the car and cried.

R U serious ... back off lady! Why is it that strangers feel so FREE to say whatever they want to whom ever they want no matter the situation?! I should have told the witch that i had 5 at home and trips on the way. That would have shut her damn hole!

I have tried very hard to say to people that it was an "UNexpected BLESSING" that way they know we weren't "trying" and they know to shut the hell up! I really wish Andy had been with me, maybe then I would have been strong enough to tell the old hag to shove it up her arass!!!

Friday, April 25, 2008

The joys of being preggers

okay so the WORST thing about being preggo the second time around when your baby is STILL just a baby .... the poop. OMG ... my nose is so sensitive, it was when I was preggers with Miss T, I can smell things from MILES away. Andy, my mom and my dad all laugh very hard at me. Someone will walk in the door and I will be on the other side of the room -
Me: Geeses, take a bath would ya
Them: r u serious "we" can't smell anything
Me: you don't smell that horrible BO
Them: no

again
Me: something is burning
Andy: where
Me: I don't know you don't smell it
Andy: probably in China
Me: seriously I smell burning
Andy: half ass walks around the house looking for burning ... honey you left you iron on AGAIN ...
Me: I told you something was burning :)

So ... back to the point ... Miss T and her poop ... it STINKS my gosh does it stink! NASTY stuff there ... never had a problem changing her until I went and got all knocked up again. haha
So that is my worst part of this pregnancy -

How bout you?! Wanna share?

Stephanie - I am guessing you will say heart burn or constant sick. Girl you had it bad the entire 9 months!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Come Rescue Me PLEASE!!!!

Took Tatum to the Dr today -
Poor baby has a ear infection (her first)
Sinus Infection and Pink EYE -
Seriously I can't handle anymore!!!

No Day Care until at least Friday

We are currently working on our AISC certification at work and all the inspectors are here ... I am freaking out!!!

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Need a hospital worker to HELP!!!

I do not think that any of my readers work at a hospital, but if you do and I didn't know I AM SORRY and if you don't, but you know someone that does ... HELP!!! I am in need of a nose sucker ... not sure what the REAL name is ... all I know is that is sucks the snot out of a babies nose before they figure out how to blow! We had one and it was wonderful ... have bought 6 ... yes 6 and all of them suck ... I have searched HIGH and LOW for a hospital grade nose bulb and can't get them. I WILL PAY!!! I WILL PAY ... did I say I WILL PAY for 1 or 2 just in case we mis place another!

Can you help?!

PS if you are a NEW mom or a expecting mom ... or just know someone who is going to be a mom ... tell them, remind them or inform then that these things are GOLD GOLD I say and that they should guard them with their lives!

Saturday, April 19, 2008

NUMB

Well I haven't posted in a while and I AM SORRY ... I really have NOTHING to talk about. The house is moving right along, the cabinet installation started on Friday ... they will continue Monday and then measure for the tops ... it is looking awesome! We added the salt system to the pool and it is looking great. We will have to recover the concrete and re coat the pool (ONE DAY) but that can't be done this year! Andy said today that he was jumping in at the end of work so I am headed back over there around 4 to catch it on camera! The pluming in the 2nd floor bathroom is approx 50% done and hopefully by next week they will be done with that! All the ceilings are complete, wait the bathroom isn't done, but it will be next week! Next in line is painting the rooms! I so hope that we are IN THE HOUSE and our now house is SOLD by the time ROBIN gets here ... her and Matt will be here in August and I can't wait!
On the day care news - things are going great! Tatum only cried on Tuesday when I dropped her off and it wasn't a HUGE cry just a little pout! She now has 4 teeth ... 2 on the bottom one out in the top and the other on the way ... and neither is her front one?! Weird! She is talking more and more everyday, but still just some GIBBERISH ... you wouldn't know by the way I talk to her ... I carry on FULL conversations with her ... hahah
Really that is IT ... it has been boring and busy at the same time, but a house busy that really not much to say!

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

I am speechless ... and depression update

So today I had a hair appointment, my mom offered to pick Tatum up from Day Care ... which by the way I had a successful day of NO CRYING!!! Mom asked if we wanted her to take Tatum to her house to eat dinner and let us go out to dinner to pick her up later ... OF COURSE!!! So we went to our favorite restaurant ... Miyabis (Japanese where they cook in front of you) we eat Sushi there every other week ... tonight we decided to eat in the Grill ... we are sat with a family of 4. A dad, mom and 2 daughters. I start to talk to them a little about having a daughter and a boy on the way ... she mentions that they are close in age too. Then a gentlemen and his son are sat with us ... the gentleman is in his 50's. The boy is 4. (yes I asked) The man heard me talking about unexpected baby 2 ... he proceeds to tell us that he has 3 daughters in college and then his little UNEXPECTED blessing ... his son. He starts to talk to us about how HIS unexpected was the BEST gift he could have ever gotten. We talked the whole dinner, I told him my story of dropping Tatum off on Tuesday (see below). Anyway at the end of dinner he nods at the waitress - a good friend of ours - and she leaves - When she returns Andy hands her our debt card ... and she announces "the gentlemen paid for everyone" Andy was speechless and so was the man at the other end of the table. I stood up gave him a hug, hugged his son and thanked him SEVERAL TIMES ... UNBELIEVABLE - I have never had anything like that happen but I tell you what it was AWESOME!!! WOW is all I can still say ... best part the girl (waitress) struggles with her bills and has had a VERY rough life. He left her a tip over $100, I thought she was going to cry ... all in all the man paid $230 for dinner with strangers! WOWO!!!!

Onto depression update -
Tuesday when I dropped Tatum off I was crying SO HARD I pulled over in the parking lot ... I did not want to wreck due to crying. While in that parking lot and while driving I talked to GOD ... told him I needed strength ... I was not raised in church and I honestly can say that I can count on 2 hands how many times I have attended a service. (which by the way I plan on changing within THIS year) ... I will give you the story of my parents and church if you want to know - but wont go into that here. I will be a member of a church by Fall and my babies WILL be raised in church! I believe in God and I do PRAY daily. I can say that I have never just asked God for strength the way I did on Tuesday. Well let me tell you - he either gave it to me or just The idea that I could get drugs helped me!!!! I decided not to take the drugs - (see below) and guess what I have NOT cried SINCE the moment I asked for strength!!! All I can say is WOW again!

Why I went with NO DRUGS
In talking to the NURSE on the phone - she was answering some questions and we were trying to figure out if I needed a extra appointment to talk to the Dr - she told me it takes 3 - 5 weeks to FULLY work and be in your system (I need it right now, I am having panic attacks, not thoughts of "bad" things)

- She (the Dr) only wanted me to take it for the middle trimester - to wein me off of it in a few weeks - (R U Serious?!) 4 weeks to get in my system and work and then wein me off over 4 weeks, for me to then take 4 weeks to get it out of my system) It all seemed like once I started to get "off" I was going to go right back to having the attacks.

- they kept referring to me as depressed and I kept telling them I DO NOT think this is DEPRESSION I think it is anxiety - and I need something RIGHT NOW ... when it happens not 4 weeks from now! I told them that I can go days weeks and be FINE then poof someone put a wrench in my well oiled machine and I FREAK OUT!

So I said thanks but no thanks I need to come in and talk to someone ... about a different option.

Since I have NOT cried since that day I have not made another appointment. If I start to get more attacks I will call them ASAP! Thank you all for your support and kind words. I told Andy I LOVE MY BLOG, I LOVE MY GIRLS AND it truly helps heal me ... he said that is good honey, that is good!

Okay last note and I am out ... ROBIN is coming to MY BEACH!!! I can't wait to meet her and her Hubby Matt! I am so excited and nervous! Hope you all have a great weekend!