Well I am beating myself up over here but I don't think we will be having a BIG birthday bash for Tatum Bell ... With work, working on the River house, Preggo and her I am EXHAUSTED!!! Last night I was in bed by 8 and up with Tatum at 4 ... she hasn't slept through the night in 4 weeks. :( Which is very hard since she has been sleeping through the night since she was 3 months. So up with her once, up to pee 3 times and my body HURTS! I tried so hard to work at the house all day yesterday ... I made it from 9 - 3 and my ankles were swollen and my fingers were too. I had to leave, go get the baby and then tend to her. So I was still up on my feet. We have missed the move in date of June ... not sure how we will be moving in in another month when I am really miserable, but we will figure it out, I guess.
Anyway back to the point - sorry I went on that whining spree ... I hate to rob her, but I thought] that it would be easier on ME (and her too) to have just the family over. It is only 2 weeks and a couple days away ... and I really just have NO ENERGY! is that horrible?! I have been to several1st birthday's with TONS of kids, and parents and really they are more for the parents than the kids, and I just can't see me spending energy for parents at this point. I love my friends, but I can't find the strength to pull it all together ... and I a horrible mommy?!